I am so eating crow right now….
When I started this blog, I was gung-ho and ready to go! I dove into each assignment of the writing seminars with gusto, eagerly waiting for feedback and that ping! notification on my phone that someone liked or commented on a piece.
Well, the phone has been silent from that special tone I assigned to it. When I get my coffee in the mornings (and at mid-day and nights!), I sit down to complete assignments for work and school. Now when I hear a ping!, it reminds me that I have neglected a forum that is dear to me and which I committed to. No one forced me to, I readily accepted the challenge, vowing to myself and the blog that “I am a promising writer and I promise to write!”.
But life has happened. I thought that since this has been a life-long dream to publish my thoughts and this medium is allowing me to do that, at my own pace, in my own style, that I would readily capitalize on it. But it ain’t happening. I feel like I’ve neglected my ‘adopted child’, who I went after though others have questioned whether I would have time for it and to which I’ve responded (testily),”‘I’ll make time for it; it’s important to me”. Oh, if they could see me now!
So how do I re-bound? It’s been a short time since this blog was established and if I’m having trouble already, should I continue? Is my voice important to Blogosphere? How important is this blog to the development of my craft, as a platform for me to grow from? These are questions I’ve asked myself. I believe that I should write and not place so much pressure on myself to publish. However I also believe it’s important to commit to it and to actually to publish at least one per week so I can establish a rhythm. I question though, if I will be able to produce anything worthy of reading if I force myself to and not allow myself some creative freedom.When I started, I had a little time to play with but now my other commitments are back, full on.
I believe if something is important to you and allows you to feel fulfilled in some manner, you should stick to it. Stick-tuitiveness ( a word I coined some time ago) describes a trait where you commit to something you desire to do but that you don’t have to. I’ve decided that I have it. I got this.